Tuesday, July 22, 2008

No greater stress

There is no greater stress than the distress of your baby. A stress that intensifies when you can do nothing to alleviate the distress she is experiencing. Our baby came home from her invasive hearing test yesterday at 1.30pm and could not settle until 7pm. No amount of feeds, rocking, pacing the floor with her, words and lullabies could soothe her. I had to put her in her basket and let her tire herself out whilst I hovered close by, crying myself. I felt like the worst mother on earth, especially as she kept looking at me through her confused and angry tears as if to say, "What's happening to me? Why am I feeling like this? Why can't you take my discomfort away from me and make me feel better?" And I cry harder because all I want is to take away her pain but cannot. And then all I want is for her daddy to come home to comfort the both of us.

8 comments:

Bombay Beauty said...

It's the worst moment, I know. But I'm sure you tried everything... At this age, there is sometimes nothing you can do but be there. If not already, soon she will understand that your sympathy is what counts more than anything. I still feel that way with my mother. BB

Priyanka said...

I hope Lil P feels better soon. I'm going through some hard time right now as I write this comment, its 12 AM here. Aashna has been up since 4:30 PM, hardly feeding and hasn't slept even a wink. She has been so cranky. I wish she could talk, no idea whats wrong. I can feel your pain.

Mallika said...

Firstly, huge congratulations on the Little P. She is beautiful and so alert for a six week old in the photo. Sorry that she's upset and hope you are both well comforted now.

Olivia said...

I'm so sorry she's been suffering and that you've been feeling it so hard. Proof that your bond is growing deeper and deeper.

Anonymous said...

I felt so helpless reading your posts. I hope you guys are feeling better now...

--childwoman--

themunchkinblog said...

I can completely understand what you are going through ....the Munchkin's vaccination days are the worst for me...I actually dread them..

Anonymous said...

She is so lovely!

What is an invasive hearing test?

I hope all of you have recovered from the stress of it all. Through trial and error, I found that a preprocedure baby tylenol dose for baby and a postprocedure stiff drink for myself was my way to get thru baby shots and other distressing phenonmenon!

Another Kiran in NYC

Planethalder said...

Kiran, the tip for a preprocedure dose for the baby is very good. I will remember that for her jabs in a couple of weeks.

Nothing special about the hearing test except the little long buds they had to put inside her ears and leave for a minute obviously made her feel very uncomfortable and therefore "invasive".