Tuesday, July 22, 2008
No greater stress
There is no greater stress than the distress of your baby. A stress that intensifies when you can do nothing to alleviate the distress she is experiencing. Our baby came home from her invasive hearing test yesterday at 1.30pm and could not settle until 7pm. No amount of feeds, rocking, pacing the floor with her, words and lullabies could soothe her. I had to put her in her basket and let her tire herself out whilst I hovered close by, crying myself. I felt like the worst mother on earth, especially as she kept looking at me through her confused and angry tears as if to say, "What's happening to me? Why am I feeling like this? Why can't you take my discomfort away from me and make me feel better?" And I cry harder because all I want is to take away her pain but cannot. And then all I want is for her daddy to come home to comfort the both of us.