Friday, February 27, 2009

It's overwhelming...

... how sad I get sometimes when I look at my daughter and think how much of her life I will not be witness to. I am neither old nor ill, and yet there will come a day when I will pass away and not have the privilege to see how she develops as a woman, how the rest of her life will turn out... Do other mothers feel this way?

6 comments:

Olivia said...

Oh my god.

This was a little hard for me to read today....there is a slight possibility my mother's results may come back as MS...I was hoping for fibromyalgia, but as there is progression it's certainly not a pinched nerve as was first suspected. It's not fair, she's so young...

You WILL see your daughter develop as a woman. But don't think about that yet. She's not even a year old :)

Munchkin said...

Why the melancholy? Live each day with gratitude...the real joy (and pain!) of parenthood is in the "now" (or so I am told) :)

Bombay Beauty said...

Not a parent myself, but I have at least one friend who mentioned this thought to me. Think of how much you will get to see... BB

Planethalder said...

Olivia, I am so, so sorry...

95% of the time I am a positive, upbeat, glass-half-full kind of girl. I had cancer once and survived so I have had my brush with mortality. Having my own child has made me think of my mortality again - not every day, just once in a while...

Olivia said...

Oh yes I remember - that is why you have such a palpable appreciation for life and savour the little things. That's the first thing I liked about you.

I remember mentioning that my mother had a brush with cancer too in 1985 and was cured - so obviously she doesn't deserve anything else because she nearly died back then, and that's enough for one lifetime.

Vanessa said...

Hi dear, I read your blog, really it touch my heart, never I will think about the matter in your way. I wish that you will see your daughter when she will be a woman.