Guilt

My head is full of cotton wool, my sinuses are swollen, my eyeballs are like jelly, my throat is like sandpaper but still I feel guilty that I couldn't go to work today. To offset that guilt a little I scoured my work emails on a regular basis, feeling relieved that I didn't have to deal with any of it until tomorrow, feeling jealous that others were taking command of the stuff that could be dealt with by others, and feeling restless because I felt left behind as work went on without a care whether I was in the office or not. Crazy mix of feelings. I should have disconnected the internet, stayed under the covers all day, and simply given in to being ill without beating myself up over being ill.